I’m 20, I live with my family but they occupy the bottom 2 floors and I’m in my own apt on the 3rd floor. I have social anxiety (I think) and hate going out unless I absolutely have to. My deep insecurity is my height (5′7"). I am humiliated by it and feel powerless around other people who are usually taller. I’ve spend years trying to come to terms with my height but I just find it unacceptable. I also have a bad history with my father and he is my sworn enemy (for his extreme meanness towards my mother and myself). I’ve cut off contact with every one in my family except my mother, who I talk to over the phone daily. She wants to go out on the weekend for things like lunch or coffee but when the day comes, my S/A takes over, I have a hard time getting out of the apt. and I wind up telling her that I’d rather not go. She gets sad and upset. Sometimes cries. I hear her talking to her sister and other close relatives in a very depressed way about me. I feel extremely guilty because of this and it’s unbearable. She tells me that she’s just concerned that I spend so much time isolating myself, but I suspect that her bigger issue is that it hurts her when she goes for weeks without seeing me in person. I never wanted to be responsible for someone else’s psychological state. Am I supposed to spend the rest of my life keeping her company? Or continue to feel guilty? Idk what to do or think…. Once I go outside, things are usually okay but it’s the process of getting out of the house that is the most difficult. I’m not sure why I avoid people. Sometimes I get anxious and have feelings of inferiority. Other times I feel that I’m being judged because of my height abnormality. (In my mind I’m feeling more like 5′ tall). The whole idea of being socially active in society overwhelms me. Can anyone help me?

Thanks.

That sounds rough :/
Maybe have your mom come over sometime and just hangout. You do need to try to go outside though… its not healthy to stay inside all day. Honestly, who cares what other people think?
I say F*ck them dude. If you act like your confident people won’t even notice you height. I’m 5′8 and a chick…. i am beyond self conscious of my height… i always feel wayyyyyy to tall. FINALLY i started dating a guy who is taller than me. Because i said F*ck people i dont care what they think about me and i had so much confidence and felt so good about myself because i just didnt care! (its good to care about people just not what they think on your appearance ) You should listen to the song "abracadavers" by the classic crime. Makes me feel good about myself in a way lol.
Hope this helped a little? >.<

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