Yeah I know u can’t diagnose me over the internet but I need help! Just could it be? My mum passed away from cancer when I was11 and I’m 13 ow, I haven’t been right ever since,I go to high-school year 8 today was my firstday in year 8 and being in different classes. Whenever I’m at school,my heart races,I start to sweat and I stop breathing for a bit just thinking about the crowds and people that stare at me there,I’m bullied or was last year a lot and got lower self esteem,fear just builds up inside of me when I think aabout being there, when I have classes with my friends even though they might be justt outside and I’m in the classroom putting my things in my bag,I sometimes am so worried that they’ll leave me or something and I end up yelling at them to wait for me even if they said they would,I know that I annoy them quite a bit saying it to then everyday and they have asked questions I told them I had anxiety and they know I have depression and I cut myself which I do,but it’s so hard because they don’t know how I feel I just want to scream for people to leave me alone and I’ve walked out of school aaometimea because I’m just that scared and want to go back home without anyone near me at all,this also happens in public places say if my dad says we are going somewhere I say can I stay here,but he forces me to g and usually where we go there are crowds,my dad doesn’t know about any of this only my sister and my cousin, but I get yelled at and say I shouldn’t be lazy I don’t blame him but I just want to soeeonw to underarms I’m just so scared and on the verge of losing it,I’ve lost interest in everything and I really want someone to help me,I’ve had this for about 2-3 years now but it’s only gotten worser since high-school because of all the judgemental people,please someone help me! I really want to keep from telling my dad as a last resort I’m not sure what his answer will be and I’d rather keep my problems as secret as possible but I want treatment or something to help me because I’m fed up with it and right now I’m dreading school so badly I feel like throwing up,I also have anxiety ands have been going to bed at 5 30 in the morning,plz help sorry for any autocorrect I wrote this all on my phone. Thx
No religious answers please

Well your dad is your dad and no matter what I am sure he would want to know if you are going through this. He probably wont understand or maybe he will but If he cares about you as I think he does then you should tell HIM whats going on. You should also try not to care/or put too much thought into what others think about you, not everyone is going to like and some may pass judgement of you for no particular reason other than they are ignorant/or insecure about themself. Best advice is to tell your dad, pretty sure he will help you out and probably take you to see a psychiatrist. Take it easy kid and Good Luck and TELL YOUR DAD ABOUT THIS, HIS YOUR DAD!!!!!!!!!

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