After the past 5 months of hypochondria; I’ve finally found out whats wrong with me: anxiety. PLEASE HELP?

I quit smoking weed about five months ago. I smoked weed during 11th grade (only on weekends) and in 12th grade (a little bit almost everyday, VERY strong stuff). And everytime i smoked, i enjoyed it; but at the same time HATED it. I would get panicky, a fast heart beat, scared to talk to girls, and over all depression. All feelings that the normal me would never have. Before this i loved getting with girls, talking to people, helping people, i was a great guy and i can definitly say that all those traits are starting to come back to me and im starting to feel more like myself and looking at the past two years as some sort of test i went through in life and now that Ive been through hell i feel almost impervious to shit! But im not quite there yet. About five months ago the depression and shit slowly started to fade and my mind and body has been acting strange. I have derealization but im dealing with it, i just want it to go away. I constantly feel like im sort of high, everythings hazy and seems… weird. Maybe ‘high’ isnt the right word. Almost like somethings wrong with my eyes. My heartbeat pounds kind of hard and makes me uncomfortable at time, i dont even go to the gym anymore on account of it starts to get uncomfortably fast (not super fuckin fast or anything, just it doesnt feel right). If i can kick the derealization and get rid of this weird heartbeat (which i believe is caused by anxiety which im working on to get rid of) i believe i can go back to living my life again and not this weird shit. Im almost there, if anyone has any tips or advice on how to deal with this stuff, PLEASE tell me anything positive or helpful is great, i hope to one day look back and this and be like "shit, that sucked…watever its done". dont waste your time saying go to a doctor, im gonna go in a couple days and have him check some stuff out, i wouldve five months ago but ive been abroad and dont have healthcare here. Thanks for reading this fuckin essay i wrote haha, take care!

Honestly there’s only one real way to overcome the symptoms of anxiety, and unfortunately that’s to just accept them.
Yeah, they can be so damn frightening, you feel sure you’re gonna die or go nuts, but fact is, you just won’t.
It’s not possible.
None of it can hurt you, keep that in mind. I find when I start freaking out that if I just accept whatever combination of symptoms it’s given me for that time, it goes away much faster.
Try not to break your routine. If you’re used to working out, keep on doing it. Chances are the weird heartbeat sensation is amplified in your mind because you’re focussing on it so much.
If it’s a still too difficult, I’d speak to your doctor about anti anxiety meds. They won’t magic everything away but they could help you on your way to accepting your symptoms by calming you a little.

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